Home Stretch
First Sunday of the run
Today is Mother’s Day, and the first Sunday of this run. The matinee starts at 1:00pm, so I have to get moving. My back is giving me trouble, but I feel pretty rested. More to come. Back home now, back is happier. DH’s memorial gathering was today also. I plan to watch it now while I unwind before bed. K1 conducted the matinee today.. that was nice. I was able to relax a bit and I ploayed better as a resultt. There’s no telling what can happen when you go into a performance. Nerves and mind, ears, other folks; so many unpredictable factors. It’s kind of neat how it all comes together and that it can be so remarkably consistent in spite of everything. We went for dumplings in between. Wow, so good. Jeff and Sean and I then enjoyed a coffee down the street at Mad Lab. THat was probably the highlight of the day. Sunny, with a nice breeze.. Sunday afternoon, mellow in Hollywood. We strolled back to the theater conversing. At our age, there is less drivenness, less goal seeking, less hunger for something intangible. We are more relating to ourselves as people with nowhere in particular to go or get to. Every gig out there is (at the end of the day) just another gig. That pie in the sky is an illusion.. it always was, but we didn’t realize it when we were younger.
So much to think about, and seemingly so little time. I am pondering the losses and dead-ends I have seen in my life. But also the freedoms and subtle joys and momentary spontenaity. I feel this joy within myself quite frequently, knowing that it is only a passing rush. I will rest and awake to another day. Then I will keep on going.
